***for every person who pushed her limits to love someone who never deserved her love***
I realise now that
The world knew it better
When it told me
Not to fall in love with you.
But may be what it didn’t know
I had already fallen for you…
The world saw it better
How you used to
Leave me crying every night
And out, in the biting cold
Stretching me in and out
As if from a black hole…
The world heard it better
The curses and sarcasms that
You used to shoot at me
My cries and pleadings
Which never sufficed to
Melt your tough heart
But what it didn’t hear were
My silent cries
In dark rooms of my heart;
The louder wailings
In deepest corners of my mind.
The world understood it better
The pain I used to be in
After each one of your beatings.
How the sadist part of you
Used to love whipping and ripping.
But what it never understood was
My mental pain was much greater.
And why and how I used to bear it all
All in the name of love.
The world saw it better
Yes, it surely did
The wounds that you left me
After each fight we had.
But what it didn’t see was
The greater war I used to fight
Everyday inside my heart.
No, it wasn’t the world that saw it better
It was me who was blind…
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“Shoot or he shoots you!” yelled the betrayer
Holding a gun to her lover’s head.
Fear of loosing sent shivers down her spine
She had to shoot her Love of life dead.
She looked in front, and there he stood
Smiling at their fate in deep contemplation
To kill that person, oh how she could!
Fond memories only aroused intense provocation.
She looked down the cliff and saw her people
An empire cursed to live on the air she exhaled
To their church, she was the steeple
“Oh I can’t be dead!” she helplessly bewailed.
Looked up and saw the angel smiling
Eyes twinkling as if showering blessings.
“What should I do!” Cried the queen
Hot tears running down her cheeks, cold from wind
“You know what to do” said the voice serene
Destiny had got her priorities twinned.
“Make it fast” shouted the villian again
She could but see through his nasty game.
Love’s death through her, would give him eternal peace,
While her death would lead the empire to cease.
Down the horizon the sun bid farewell
Love had to kill her before she would
Turn into a monster and roam the hell.
But kill his lady love? Oh how he could!
“Please kill me!” shouted Love
“For your people, for the love of God!”
“Do it…” said the Angel above
“Your empire would be a peace abode”
“Bang!” her gun shot Love down
“Glory!!” down the people hailed
Love’s blood stained her royal gown
“Agonies apart, her duty prevailed”.
Her people kept celebrating her victory
While her tears dried and heart crashed
For them she was a Queen of eternity
Yet inside she had herself killed!
A lonely body carrying a heart
Crippled from past ventures
Afraid of attachments and adventures
Scared to fall in love again…
Can she risk it to another pair of hands
So weak, so bleak and so foolhardy
To carry her heart, broken by millions?
Wary of the world again…
Despite the pains and promises to herself
Her meek heart won over her mind
And managed to convince her let it go
To give it another chance again…
Her heart knows the grief it has to bear
But she had promised not to shed a tear
Now already sees an inferno ahead
Still decides to go with the flow again…
With every cut, deeper will be the scar
But she no cares anymore
For “wise” is she now to know the fact
That sharper the cuts,
Brighter does a diamond shine…
Then what will she be when it all ends?
Or will it really ever end?
Will she be the brightest of all?
So bright, that it’ll blind others like her
And make them follow the path as hers?