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I’m nothing

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That moment when I realised
What it took for you to trust me
What you left behind to love me
What it meant to be told the things I couldn’t see,
I fell in love like never before…

I’m sure this is the luckiest I could be
Because I’m loved by a person
Stronger than anyone can ever be
I’m falling for you more than I thought I will
With each day giving me reasons in goodwill.

You told me to seek trust from my ownself
Rather than asking for you to trust me
But dear don’t you know?
I’m much more dubious than I show…
So please bless me for I’m a bungler
I’m inexperienced and unwise
I’m everything that I despise.

But I can’t loose you to my stupid mistakes.
I can’t let this love go in vain…
I won’t let you down again.
Tonight as I open my heart to love
I take a vow under the moon as I walk
And since my pen does the talk,
I write in these words to you…

In the deep waters of commitment that I dive,
I promise I’ll strive to save and survive.
I promise I’ll fight back the insecurities that I face
I promise I’ll be someone whom no one can replace.

Please stay more

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Let me listen to a few more of your untuned songs
Songs so offbeat, so much out of tune
Yet words i can trust and relate in your voice.
Tell me more about the dreams and ambitions
That you carry in this beautiful heart of yours.
And talk about books, music, love and life!
Let a few more days be gone and Watch with me the spring flowers bloom
Let a few more nights fall into the madness of our love
As we lay under the stars and the moon…
Let my mind take in the moments spent with you, slowly,
And store them safe in its deepest corners…
Let my heart slow down and calm itself before you go away.
Let me embrace you till I breath again into a new life
Let me leave memories as intense as you left me with
Memories that left me craving for more.

The world saw it better

***for every person who pushed her limits to love someone who never deserved her love***

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I realise now that
The world knew it better
When it told me
Not to fall in love with you.
But may be what it didn’t know
Was that
I had already fallen for you…

May be,
The world saw it better
How you used to
Leave me crying every night
And out, in the biting cold
Stretching me in and out
As if from a black hole…

The world heard it better
The curses and sarcasms that
You used to shoot at me
My cries and pleadings
Which never sufficed to
Melt your tough heart
But what it didn’t hear were
My silent cries
In dark rooms of my heart;
The louder wailings
In deepest corners of my mind.

The world understood it better
The pain I used to be in
After each one of your beatings.
How the sadist part of you
Used to love whipping and ripping.
But what it never understood was
My mental pain was much greater.
And why and how I used to bear it all
All in the name of love.

The world saw it better
Yes, it surely did
The wounds that you left me
After each fight we had.
But what it didn’t see was
The greater war I used to fight
Everyday inside my heart.
No, it wasn’t the world that saw it better
It was me who was blind…

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Will you be there?

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I want to know if some day,
I lay on my death bed
Saying goodbye to the world;
Saying hello to a peaceful dread,
How many pairs of eyes will cry,
Shed tears of honest emotions.
How many mouths will go dry
Out of words to speak words of wisdom.

I want to know if some day,
I’m accused of a wrong deed
How many people will trust my instinct,
And how many will sow dubiety’s seed.
How many pairs of hands will rise
In support of an innocent me
And how many will rise their fingers
As my flaws would be only thing they see.

I want to know if some day,
I be crippled to stand, see or think
How many pairs of legs will support
In the day time until night fall’s brink
How many minds will show me light
Through my mental and physical darkness
How many bodies will give me the strength
The energy and motivation that I can harness.

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Lost companionship

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Running along the street
And jumping across the puddles
I used to make it convinient
To travel along with you.
Noisiest roads could hear our laughs clear
Toughest of pains, we could together bear.
We managed to stay good
During days so gloomy,
Boycotted from class, no fear,
We could still be happy.
Things changed as you changed your path
You mind, attitude and everything else.
I kept wondering if you were always like that
Still ready to support you in every step.
However good I tried to be
My sincerity in friendship you couldn’t see
You said cold words with ruthless sarcasm
But to save our friendship was my jasm.
I tried hard to stay patient
And see where it all takes us to
But you weren’t ready to give me a hand
Promises became castles made of sand.
You critisised me with sour satire
You became a person whom i could hardly admire.
Neither you nor I now, enter each other’s domain
Jokes are old, only formal greets remain.
I’m just a lonely traveller now
And you are my lost companion i search for.

Meet of souls…

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I was contemplating my life
When I met you, unexpectedly
My mind didn’t blow up,
Nor my heart was flying high
Everything seemed as normal
As this balanced universe.
My inner self grew wiser
And I was matured beyond age
No fear, no worries of repercussion
I found my life and me myself
Moving in the right direction…
I won’t say that you are
The lucky charm of my life
As bad days did come to me
Since life has to be interesting
But simple words spoken by you
Could give me endless strength to live
An aura of confidence and satisfaction
Enveloped me, I felt enlightened.
For some reason untold,
I could connect to you so deep
I felt as if I knew you from centuries
And kept knowing  you better as the years leaped.
To me it feels, the universe conspired
To bring us together in this world
Because its not just our interests that match
But also the minds and souls do so.
I don’t know if we’ve ever met
In our past lives and more
Nor do I know as to what exactly
Future holds, for us both.
Physical world holds no meaning to me
Since I’ve no earthly attachments to you
Our connection is spiritual, the world won’t see
But nature would celebrate as its more than love.
On Earth, I don’t know if we can be one
But the very meet of our souls
Has completed my search
My intention of magic, my fantasy of  life…
This rational world won’t believe me for sure
But I know that I have met my soulmate…

Going away….

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Everyone said that they missed their parents

And I wondered why I didn’t feel the same…

As tears flowed out of my friends innocent eyes,

I wiped them happily and cracked jokes so lame.

My heart would cry for the sad faces of my friends

But never be gloomy that I was away from my guardians

Some said that I’m a tough heart, while to some, I had no heart!

Some just asked why I didn’t feel sad and to teach them the art.

I myself felt strange about not missing my dear family

To my heart, that was a heavier load to carry!

Don’t I love Maa Papa, or is really my heart so tough?

Or do I find silly to cry and do all such meaningless stuffs?

Days after, I could guess , the reason behind my missing emotion.

And the reason gave me great confidence and motivation.

My strong heart it was, that adjusted my ways and let me going

My rational mind it was that kept me calm through unknown surroundings…