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The world saw it better

***for every person who pushed her limits to love someone who never deserved her love***

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I realise now that
The world knew it better
When it told me
Not to fall in love with you.
But may be what it didn’t know
Was that
I had already fallen for you…

May be,
The world saw it better
How you used to
Leave me crying every night
And out, in the biting cold
Stretching me in and out
As if from a black hole…

The world heard it better
The curses and sarcasms that
You used to shoot at me
My cries and pleadings
Which never sufficed to
Melt your tough heart
But what it didn’t hear were
My silent cries
In dark rooms of my heart;
The louder wailings
In deepest corners of my mind.

The world understood it better
The pain I used to be in
After each one of your beatings.
How the sadist part of you
Used to love whipping and ripping.
But what it never understood was
My mental pain was much greater.
And why and how I used to bear it all
All in the name of love.

The world saw it better
Yes, it surely did
The wounds that you left me
After each fight we had.
But what it didn’t see was
The greater war I used to fight
Everyday inside my heart.
No, it wasn’t the world that saw it better
It was me who was blind…

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Your light

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“You have something I get attracted to.
I can see a light in you!
A light so magical, so full of life
Fills me with joy and pleasure…
Pleasure of an essence, joy of a narcotic!”

“Stay away from me!
For that blazing thing is an Inferno you see.
It burns inside me day and night
Blinding naive eyes like yours”

“I want to be burnt in that Inferno
For what you are is what I want to know
It’s worth knowing
Why and how that Inferno exists in you;
Your fire is pure and pious
I want to stay in the light you contain
For I know I’ll find my nirvana there
As does a moth
Circling around the light it wants
For its life
Knowing it’ll be burnt one day!”

“My dear, you seek a dangerous light
Don’t be a moth, don’t you fight
For something so dicey
Or you will burn yourself to death
Chasing the light that can never be yours
Rather be a firefly,
To twinkle like stars on wet grasses
To decorate the garden of a monsoon wedding…
To be the sparkles of joy for a mid night lullaby
To be light of wisdom for an angelic being
Or to illuminate the path of lost travellers…
Do not seek a light because it’ll only hurt
Be the light that you seek”

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Will you be there?

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I want to know if some day,
I lay on my death bed
Saying goodbye to the world;
Saying hello to a peaceful dread,
How many pairs of eyes will cry,
Shed tears of honest emotions.
How many mouths will go dry
Out of words to speak words of wisdom.

I want to know if some day,
I’m accused of a wrong deed
How many people will trust my instinct,
And how many will sow dubiety’s seed.
How many pairs of hands will rise
In support of an innocent me
And how many will rise their fingers
As my flaws would be only thing they see.

I want to know if some day,
I be crippled to stand, see or think
How many pairs of legs will support
In the day time until night fall’s brink
How many minds will show me light
Through my mental and physical darkness
How many bodies will give me the strength
The energy and motivation that I can harness.

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The Story of a Queen

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“Shoot or he shoots you!” yelled the betrayer
Holding a gun to her lover’s head.
Fear of loosing sent shivers down her spine
She had to shoot her Love of life dead.
She looked in front, and there he stood
Smiling at their fate in deep contemplation
To kill that person, oh how she could!
Fond memories only aroused intense provocation.
She looked down the cliff and saw her people
An empire cursed to live on the air she exhaled
To their church, she was the steeple
“Oh I can’t be dead!” she helplessly bewailed.
Looked up and saw the angel smiling
Eyes twinkling as if showering blessings.
“What should I do!” Cried the queen
Hot tears running down her cheeks, cold from wind
“You know what to do” said the voice serene
Destiny had got her priorities twinned.
“Make it fast” shouted the villian again
She could but see through his nasty game.
Love’s death through her, would give him eternal peace,
While her death would lead the empire to cease.
Down the horizon the sun bid farewell
Love had to kill her before she would
Turn into a monster and roam the hell.
But kill his lady love? Oh how he could!
“Please kill me!” shouted Love
“For your people, for the love of God!”
“Do it…” said the Angel above
“Your empire would be a peace abode”
“Bang!” her gun shot Love down
“Glory!!” down the people hailed
Love’s blood stained her royal gown
“Agonies apart, her duty prevailed”.
Her people kept celebrating her victory
While her tears dried and heart crashed
For them she was a Queen of eternity
Yet inside she had herself killed!

Meet of souls…

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I was contemplating my life
When I met you, unexpectedly
My mind didn’t blow up,
Nor my heart was flying high
Everything seemed as normal
As this balanced universe.
My inner self grew wiser
And I was matured beyond age
No fear, no worries of repercussion
I found my life and me myself
Moving in the right direction…
I won’t say that you are
The lucky charm of my life
As bad days did come to me
Since life has to be interesting
But simple words spoken by you
Could give me endless strength to live
An aura of confidence and satisfaction
Enveloped me, I felt enlightened.
For some reason untold,
I could connect to you so deep
I felt as if I knew you from centuries
And kept knowing  you better as the years leaped.
To me it feels, the universe conspired
To bring us together in this world
Because its not just our interests that match
But also the minds and souls do so.
I don’t know if we’ve ever met
In our past lives and more
Nor do I know as to what exactly
Future holds, for us both.
Physical world holds no meaning to me
Since I’ve no earthly attachments to you
Our connection is spiritual, the world won’t see
But nature would celebrate as its more than love.
On Earth, I don’t know if we can be one
But the very meet of our souls
Has completed my search
My intention of magic, my fantasy of  life…
This rational world won’t believe me for sure
But I know that I have met my soulmate…

Going away….

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Everyone said that they missed their parents

And I wondered why I didn’t feel the same…

As tears flowed out of my friends innocent eyes,

I wiped them happily and cracked jokes so lame.

My heart would cry for the sad faces of my friends

But never be gloomy that I was away from my guardians

Some said that I’m a tough heart, while to some, I had no heart!

Some just asked why I didn’t feel sad and to teach them the art.

I myself felt strange about not missing my dear family

To my heart, that was a heavier load to carry!

Don’t I love Maa Papa, or is really my heart so tough?

Or do I find silly to cry and do all such meaningless stuffs?

Days after, I could guess , the reason behind my missing emotion.

And the reason gave me great confidence and motivation.

My strong heart it was, that adjusted my ways and let me going

My rational mind it was that kept me calm through unknown surroundings…

What is that I want?

All I want right now is…
Some fun and peace of mind
As nothing is giving me a reason to smile
A beautiful poem or a person so kind.

I want to go up and stay on the hills
And commune with the holy spirits there;
To meditate all day and contemplate the nature
That would whisper into my ears, my heart’s desire.

What is that thing, that can make me happy,
Or give an unbound sense of satisfaction?
I fear that thing is missing from my life
Or is just hidden by my brains useless perceptions?

Something that can calm my restless mind;
Something that can lift up my sleeping soul;
Something that can give me a reason to live;
Something that can show me the path towards my goal.

What I feel is called “the limit of tedium”
I want something that can cure this dangerous boredom!
I’ve tried my best to explore my mind…
But could hardly know what it binds.

My dreams are too shaky to be defined
And ambition also are so precarious…
There is no way out of my blurred vision
My future seems to be a tough mission.

In a few days of unending despair
I realised many things and could find
The reality of life that is a simple fact
“Satisfy your soul to open up your mind!”